Today I actually went to something for the first time since Monday. I've fallen into a funk. Of course, going to a reading of the Ajax followed by a discussion of the effects of war on modern society didn't exactly cheer me up or take me out of myself, but it did remind me to stop being such a ninny. There's nothing like listening to people talk about their experiences in Iraq and Afghanistan to make you feel horribly guilty about your tearful reactions to having to visit four different prestigious colleges. Oh no--how awful! I still am tearful about it though. I think the fact that I got my period and college news at exactly the same time pretty much disproves the existence of God.
This is a really good idea! I can share my thoughts much faster than on paper, though I do enjoy writing in my journal. I'm not sure how to balance the two though. But I am writing more. Though it's also only April 2nd, and I've already fallen into the habit of writing my blog post right before bed.
Today I read a lot--Marlow books. I hadn't read one in awhile. I forgot how well-written and amusing they are, and of course Nicola is so likable. I identify much more with Lawrie than ever before, which is a bit peculiar since I'm now four years older than she is in the books I've been reading, and she's immature even then. And I don't cry nearly as much as her, except in the past few days, and never have. It's also a good reminder that just because I am a teenager, I don't need to be rude to my mother. Ugh, sometimes I hate myself, and my ability to be stupidly boorish and insensitive. Why is it so easy sometimes?
My thoughts are a little scattered tonight; I really just want to go read some more, and then go to bed early. So I think I will stop trying to think of things to say, and just go do that. :)
No comments:
Post a Comment